It's Been a While
Updated: 6 days ago
Sorry that I haven't reached out in a while, I have been going through a big transition.
I'm still in Albany, working my ass off. It's been nearly a year since I've graduated college, I'm trying to get the hang out adulting.
Did you know that I'm a cat mom now? My little girl's name is Lucy; she's a calico with major catitude, and she's about to be two years old by the end of August. I got her when she was just short of 6 weeks old, can you believe that? I was wiping her ass and little paws, taking her everywhere with me and teaching her how to go with the flow. She loves to bask in the sun, eat some yummy tuna and stay clean. I just can't get enough of her sweet face, but she can definitely be a little devil sometimes!
We just moved into our first one bedroom apartment. It's crazy, it's our first time with real independence. We've been enjoying the solitude and freedom. But sometimes it can get lonely, luckily we have each other. We've been catching up on some shows like Broad City, GLOW, and Love on The Spectrum. Lucy's also been loving the game of fetch lately. She likes to play really early in the morning, but 4am is not really my speed.
For work, I've been freelancing my skills in music, as well as landscaping, interior design and decor. I'm also doing my seasonal work as a wedding singer with Silver Arrow Band, which I absolutely love. I've had the chance to visit Lake Placid for the past couple of weekends, and I will be going to Cooperstown for the first time this coming weekend.
The past couple months have been great as far as music firsts go. I performed at my first music festival in May, right here in Albany. It was an honor to be a part of the Tulip Festival as a feature with Hanzolo, and as a solo act backed by my friends Mark Manning and Chase Keener. The weather was gorgeous, and the audience was spectacular.
It had been a pretty tough week to follow, as we lost a member of our community Nate Hopper on May 5th, right before the graduates of 2022 took to the podium. I had to say goodbye to a lot of friends and loved ones that week, many of which I wasn't even expecting.
Needless to say, I have been writing a lot of music about it. I've noticed my writing style has been very wordy and journal entry-ask. So I've decided that I will start adding some of my works to this blog, in hopes to have a creative outlet where my words can be digested easier, to those of you who care enough to read it.
To be honest, I think this is more for me than anyone else. I always wanted to write a blog, document my growth... For the first time in a long time, I feel like I want to be me completely. Without apologies.
I've been working on a song that I've written called, "Help," which talks a lot about what I've gone through lately... but it also feels like a testament to the last 10 years of my life. I'm 22 now... so that's a long time, since middle school I guess. I didn't really feel like I was accepted as my truest self back then, and now here I am back to where I started... just me and my guitar, except now I'm a lot more self-aware, and I have a cat. It's like the reversed Upside Down.
I got to test out this new song at the Listen Up Awards this past Friday, and I think the response was pretty rad... So I'm excited to continue working on it, and expand on the sentiments. I think I'm coming back to my roots, unlocking some childhood memories and revisiting some tough feelings that I buried beneath the surface for a while.
I realized that I was letting the past define my present, but in a way that was completely unproductive. I often times would take up too much space in conversations with the people that I adored, rehashing the past and the should've, could've, would've bullshit. While that's all great to process and expand on, my friends and even my therapist couldn't handle the rollercoaster; so I'm now doing what I should have been doing from the start, writing about it.
Maybe I'll write a bit about it here, hopefully I'll write some beautiful lines that will be released with ambient instrumentation. All in all, I'm back baby. Better than I was before.. Maybe I'm not all sunshine and rainbows, but I'm real and I'm me.. and I'm here.